2.05.2010


A black hole

It has been 21 days since my first post.

No, I have not fallen into a black hole, although at times it sure has felt that way. I am still here, and have neither been too busy, or too lazy, to write.  Quite the contrary actually.  I have more than just a few drafts in my dashboard, and all these time when I have been seemingly quiet and absent was spent (in between, of course, the steady demands of the day and a life) trying to figure out, in my low tech mind and with my low tech knowledge, how to make photos find its way within the words in my blog, and right before that, how to crop and enhance the quality of my amateur shots.  It is, simultaneously and alternately, easier and more difficult than I thought.  But I'm getting there.

I've managed to make friends with blogging technology somehow, what little I know and understand of it, in a pace slower than I could ever wish.  But I can't complain, really.  I'm trying to figure it all out mostly by myself, and with lots of help from two people ---- Rica, who I hope and pray will officially be my sister-in-law very soon and my husband, whenever he has free time from his otherwise packed and often toxic schedule.  Oh, make that three.  My daughter has proved to be invaluable, too.  And brave.  She sensibly presses a button here and there, clicks this and that, and magic (in my eyes at least) happens.  All of a sudden, what once was a jumbled mess makes sense to me.  She is more computer savvy than I am, bless heaven for small mercies like that.  Thank you, Juliana.

I will back, hopefully within the day, with a new post that has been steeping patiently, faithfully, in my draft box since January 16.  There will be pictures, too.  I am almost done dragging the latter lot here and there.  My oh my, I can get lost and engrossed for hours doing just that.

That said I do not know, given the many things I constantly have to do, if that will always be a good thing ..........

1.15.2010

On a whim

On a whim, and on the wings of a dream, I am finally (after tossing the idea around in my mind for almost half a year already) starting a blog. It is a lonely place for me, for now at least, but I hope not for long. So here i go........

I guess there is no turning back now. I acknowledge there is a commitment that comes with starting something like this, and now is as good a time as any to be up for it.

Why am I even starting a blog, I wonder, when I always lament that there are not enough hours in a day to do all the things I want, and have, to do. I am going to have even less time now, but I suspect I will be happier. Why should I not be, when I am doing this for myself, my battle-cry of freedom being that I will have the power to control my deadlines anyway. Naturally, those deadlines will be self-imposed. That gives me a measure of peace. In almost the same breath I declare that I do hope to be able to post regularly, given even the busyness of my days, and by doing that get the ball really rolling. I have high hopes that blogging will be a pleasant habit to make.

What will I be writing about? Your guess is as good as mine. We will find out together as we go along. But this early it is safe to say this blog will be like a personal diary of sorts, a baring of thoughts as they spring from both mind and heart. It will be fluid that way, chockfull of random thoughts and musings and, when I get around to making friends with cameras and the way they can work with and for computers and blogs like this, some photos, too. Mainly I am taking this on to record the happy-ness always present in my life, whether I see it clearly or not as it happens. I just know it is there. Always. I hope as you journey along with me (and I hope you will!) you will learn to not only listen, but soak in and enjoy, the shape of your very own happy-ness also, in things both big and small.

As I learn to do all that, hopefully effortlessly so, I will not stop being a mother and wife, I will continue with my dancing, and my work on TV. I will still be joyfully relentless at spinning the many little dreams I always have tucked inside me and as they come true, know that I will be sharing them with you. That should double the portion of joy.

In most everything, I find that enjoying the journey matters almost as much as the destination. That said, wherever you are in your life right now, I do hope you make time to catch some moondust, and welcome some madness. These two will make for even more beautiful days ahead.